long time - no talkie

so i completley forgot about this site

so much has happened . . . graduated college, moved back to austin, now living with franks mom and working as a retail manager for Target.

Other than having Frank - my life pretty much blows right now. I HATE my job with a passion but dont know what else to do or where to go. At least I have a job and the money is pretty good. But I still hate feeling so depressed all the time.

I want to get my own place (at least one for me and frank) so I can stop mooching off his Mom (though she enjoys us being here) but I cant afford it and frank doesn't have a job so I would be paying all the bills - no bueno :(

Anyways - I feel like I am drifting away from my family and tha sucks even more - I just feel . . . LOST! Like I have no one to turn too

Yesterday was a bad day - had a dream that my father (dean) died and woke up in tears - sent him an email and listened to Garth Brooks all day - but it was a good day for me and frank :)

No bickering, spent the whole day together and last night he was soooo hyper -he was giggling like a little girl - but it made me so happy to know that I can make him laugh like that, and its moments like that make me realize he is the one that I want to spend the rest of my life with !!

Been feeling a little "off" latley - wondering if it may be soemthing - should find out today or tomorrow if it is what i think it could be. . . hhmmmm - dont know how to feel about it - but I guess I should wait and see before I get ahead of myself!

Anways- gotta jet

TTFN